That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
That I would be fine even even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing
That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy
That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good
Whether with or without you
Some Mondays are harder than others. Today is hard. I needed to post this so I could get it out of my system and start picturing bigger and better things. It is hard to not feel like you measure up. It is hard to feel like you chose a path in the road that was harder than everyone elses... and now there is no turning back.
You've got to get up every morning with a smile on your face, and show the world all the love in your heart. Then people gonna treat you better; You're gonna find, yes, you will, that you're beautiful as you feel. -- Carole King
I was worried on Friday when I looked at my schedule for next week (now TOMORROW) that I better just sleep at work. My colleague even offered to put cots in one of our downstairs training rooms for purposes of napping and then getting back up and starting to work again... kinda like what they do in hospitals for doctors.
THEN I thought a little further about my fab four and their 2nd week of school, and all that entailed... and um... honestly... I had a moment of panic! I have enjoyed my time off this summer with my kids more than other summers I think. Or... it is just that all that seems so long ago that I enjoyed it just as much, I just can't remember?
I love the look on their faces when they ask if I will be here when they get home from school and I can say yes. I love the look on their faces when they ask if it is a "stay home day" aka the weekend... and the answer is yes. Sunday mornings are my favorite too. Nobody cares about staying in pajamas. Nobody feels the need to eat breakfast quick and run out the door. The first trip of the morning ends up being one to get donuts :)
If I think about the whole week all together - every piece - work, kids, money, commute, bills... you will hear a scream to encompass the globe. So... I try to follow Carole King's advice... keep a smile on my face... and just focus on the next thing at hand. For now, that next thing is just enjoying the moment that is Sunday morning. We have a Bedrock party tonight on SL. Blissie promises to be home today for a Sunday field trip. I have helped D figure out facebook. We have tried to curb Simon's endless 5 year old requests with sugar and tickles. Rachel is off playing the newest online fascination Barbie.com. Life is good... despite the fact it is August and over 105... life is good :)
One other note... saddened by Bernie Mac's untimely death... I thought this was a clip worth sharing. He had the right idea too - do what makes you happy... and most importantly choose to be happy!
and... if choosing to be happy isn't enough... choose to be tough and take a page out of Bernie's book... from the Bernie Mac Show:
So - after seeing all this laundry and figuring that those items were scrubbed by hand I felt:
Glad that I had a washing machine
Thankful that I only had 4 kids and my laundry didn't have to hang out the window in front of God and everyone
Relieved I could finally head to the office and find serenity at work
Ok - did I just say "find serenity at work?" As a matter of fact I did! I tell you - a week off with 4 flu-sick kids is not the spa vacation package I had hoped for - although my hands are extra extra sparkly clean from scrubbing.
It is a relief to be back in the land of grownups and realize that I can still form complete sentences when people ask me questions and no one is needing me to hand them a bucket to puke in or wipe their poopy bottom. (I know, I know, TMI).
How's your Monday? Any Hoooing at the water cooler today? And most importantly - are you loving your job or what?
Your Job Satisfaction Level: 94%
Your job is nearly perfect - you've totally lucked out!
You like what you do, who you work for, and the people you work with.
And it seems like the job you have will eventually get you the job you want.
So enjoy what you've got. You've landed the ideal job!
By the way - I have to tell you - I really didn't feel chipper and perky today. But I'm glad Monday is almost over and I paid a few bills and I just get to hang out and relax - in RL and SL. Hoo!
